9200

Uncle Charlie's South (Jan 1)

9202

“The Big Showdown" Contestants

9203

Notes on Fantasies

9204

New York City Play

9205

Note on John A

9206

New Years Eve Listing (Jan 2)

9209

NYC to SF (Jan 4)

9211

SF to Lima Flight (Jan 5)

9213

Montevideo (Jan 6)

9215-9216

Mar del Plata (Jan 7)

9218-9221

Buenos Aires Tour (Jan 8)

9223

Walk in Buenos Aires (Jan 9)

9225

At Sea-General Impressions (Jan 10)

9227

At Sea-Additional Comments (Jan 11)

9229-9230

Sao Paulo Tour (Jan 12)

9232

Rio--Sugar Loaf Tour (Jan 13)

9234

Rio--Corcovado (Jan 14)

9236

Vitoria and the Crew (Jan 15)

9238-9239

At Sea-Ron and Me (Jan 16)

9241

Salvador (Jan 17)

9243

Salvador to Caracas to Los Angeles (Jan 18)

9245

With Michael Rosner in San Francisco (Jan 19)

9247

Sunday in San Francisco (Jan 20)

9249

Consciousness-Raising in San Francisco (Jan 21)

9252

Sex at Art's (Jan 23)

9255

Talk with Rolf (Jan 25)

9257

Ejaculation Fortune-Telling

9258

Talk with Marty (Jan 26)

9260

Incomparable Sex with Rolf (Jan 27)

9262

Economics Through Rolf

9263

Chhau, The Masked Dance of Bengal (Jan 28)

9266

Last Notes from South America

9268

Top-Grossing Films as of l/l/75

9269

I'm NOT GAY Like Everyone (Jan 30)

9272

Strange Foursome at Art's (Feb 1)

9274

Wayland Flowers at the Grand Finale (Feb 2)

9276

Wall Street Sauna 2 (Feb 3)

9278

Club Baths 18 (Feb 4)

9280

“Lacombe, Lucien”

9281

All My Friends Are Busy

9282

Building Up to 20-Year Change?

9283

Everything Turns Sour (Feb 5)

9286

Lar Lubovitch's Five Dances

9287-9293

Title Pages 32 to 38 (Feb 7) (THIRD SELF-REFERENCING PAGE!]

9296

“Cat on a Hot Tin Roof”

9297

Tsi-Dun at A's and G's (Feb 9)

9299

Wall Street Sauna 3

9300

Paul B and Roommate (Feb 10)

9302

Babbitt Brighton and Ozymiranda

9303

Most Beautiful Jerkoff

9304

Meditation Mentations

9305

Babbitt Brighton and Airplane Crashes

9306

Future Graffiti

9307

New Daily Framework (Feb 11)

9309

“Equus” (Feb 12)

9312

Talk with Art

9313

Talk with Paul after Sex

9314

Andy De Groat

9315

Meditation Thoughts (Feb 14)

9317

Douglas Dunn/David Woodberry

9318

Foursome at Art's

9319

Morning Movies (Feb 15)

9324

Rolf on Eurobanks (Feb 19)

9326

“La Forza del Destino”

9327

Dream of 2/21 (Feb 20)

9330

Elizabeth Keen Dance Company

9331

Suicides to a World They Wish For?

9332

“Ruy Blas” Recording (Feb 22)

9334

Art's Claustrophobia (Feb 23)

9336

National Gay Task Force Benefit at Reno Sweeney

9337

Sadness

9338

Writing Ultimatum

9339

Paula on Gay Women (Feb 24)

9341

Dream of 2/24

9342

Stoned Words (Feb 24)

9344

Dream of 2/26 (Feb 26)

9346

Opening of the Joffrey Ballet

9347

House-Messer Violence (Feb 27)

9349

Dream of 2/27

9350

Kei Takei at BAM

9351

Thoughts for Homosexuality Class (Feb 28)

9353

Masturbation Series (Mar 1)

9355

Art's Relatives (Mar 2)

9358

Bob and Nina about their House-Moving

9359

Call from the Village Voice Author

9360-9361

Qawwali Music (Mar 4)

9363

Too Much Food and Too Much Sleep

9364

Art O (Mar 5)

9366

“Smart Money” Tryout

9367-9368

Masturbation Research

9369

“Absurd Person Singular”

9370

Dream Fragment

9371

John Now (Mar 6)

9373

Too Much Diary-Writing?

9374

Bob G's Early Cruising

9375

Joffrey Poorer

9376

George Allen Meeting

9377

Marcia Siegel and ??? Harris Talk (Mar 7)

9380-9385

Non-Fiction Workshop at New School (Mar 9)

9388

Talk with Art About Sex (Mar 11)

9390

More Coincidences (Mar 12)

9409-9410

“Idle Thoughts of an Idle Fellow” (Mar 13)

9412

Dream 1 of 3/13

9413

Dream 2 of 3/13

9414

Dream 3 of 3/13

9415

Dream 4 of 3/13---SHORT STORY

9416

Rolf Again

9417

Pennsylvania Ballet Not so Bad (Mar 14)

9419

Dreams of 3/14

9420

Solomon's "Steady Work" (Mar 15)

9422

Bob R and Hand-Jobs

9423

Orgy Here, First of the Year

9424

Frank G (Mar 16)

9426

“Idomeneo” (Mar 17)

9428

Dream of 3/17 (Mar 18)

9430

Joffrey for the Third Time Not Good

9431

Welcoming Death

9432

Ignorance of the Law (Mar 19)

9435

Rolf's a Real LAY (Mar 21)

9438

"Flush, A Biography" (Mar 23)

9442

John's Dinner Party

9443

Soft Orgasm (Mar 26)

9445

Smart Money Expanded (Mar 27)

9448

Kathy Posin's "Nuclear Energy"

9449-9459

"Twenty Stops on the Pelham Bay Local"

9460

Halliburton "The Glorious Adventure"

9461

Sloppy Orgasms (Mar 29)

9464-9475

First Day (Mar 31)

9479

Fantastic Coming Sensations

9480

A Question of Priorities

9481

Drive to Masturbate

9482

Idea of Editing

9483

Foreign Friends

9484

Can't Talk to Bill

9485

Things to Do Around the Apartment

9486

Things to Do About Work

9487

Never at the Right Time

9488

Again, why the Diary?----DEJA VU-

9489

Ridiculous Fantasies about Diary after I Die

9490

Everything In and Only THIS is Out

9491

Dream of 4/5

9492

Do I LIKE Feeling High?

9493

Marijuana Study Summary

9494

Sexual Karma

9495

Reincarnation Thoughts

9496

Unusual Experiences Produce Unusual Writing

9497

Am I Going Mad?

9498

New Do List

9499

Lists: Today's Typing/Series Comma

9500

Where Am I Now?

9501

"Die Tote Stadt" (Apr 3)

9503

"Drumming" with Laura Dean and Steve Reich (Apr 4)

9505

Erin Martin

9506

Smoking at Art's and the Jewel Theater (Apr 5)

9508

Maya Kulkarni and Janak Khendry at Cubiculo (Apr 6)

9510

"Drumming" the Second Time

9511

THEY Are Watching

9512

Dream of 4/7 (Apr 7)

9514

Must I Triumph over Bob G?

9515

1975 World Figure-Skating Tour (Apr 8)

9518

Twyla Tharp at Town Hall

9519

National Folk Ensemble of Peru (Apr 10)

9521

"P.S. Your Cat is Dead!" (Apr 11)

9526

Dream of 4/14 (Apr 15)

9528

Dream of 4/15

9529

Evening with Rolf (Apr 16)

9531

Mariano Parra Lecture-Demonstration (Apr 17)

9533

Dream of 4/17

9534

Max Ernst Exhibit

9535

The Movie of "Tommy"

9536

"Oba Koso"

9537

West 12/12 West (Apr 18)

9539

Eating Song for "New York City" (Apr 19)

9541

Second ASI All-Day Meeting Notes

9542

Using the New York Times Information Bank

9543

Salute to Magic (Apr 20)

9545

Manuel Alum

9546

1974 Tony Awards

9547

Devastating Come (Apr 21)

9549

Audience Reaction to "The Godfather, Part II" (Apr 22)

9552

"Spartacus" by Bolshoi (Apr 24)

9554

"Vesti La Giuba" (Apr 25)

9556

Sergio Cervetti's "Music Within the Music" (Apr 26)

9558

Merce Cunningham (Apr 27)

9560

Spring Rites at La Mama

9561

Double Come (Apr 28)

9563

TDI As Alice In Wonderland

9564

Orgy of Sensations (Apr 29)

9566

"Ivan the Terrible" Ballet (Apr 30)

9567

Notes from New Century Goodies (on desk)

9569

Priorities in Living

9570

Tranquillity (May 1)

9574

Bob's Incredible Experience (May 4)

9576

Zen Spirits Leaving

9577

Talk with Art B (May 5)

9579

Club Baths 19 (May 6)

9582

Bolshoi's "Giselle" (May 8)

9585

Orgy for Art (May 10)

9587

Laserium and Nudes in one Evening

9588

List of Videotaped Movies to Buy (May 11)

9591

Artbook Thoughts (May 13)

9593

The Greatest "Sleeping Beauty" Ever

9594

Extraordinary Orgasm

9595

Fantasies for Coming

9596

More Hates

9597

Sounds in the Morning (May 14)

9599

Stephen W

9600

Sexual Nonchalance

9601-9605

Audience-of-One Evening

9606

India or Not? (May 15)

9607

Miscellaneous Hates (on desk)

9609

Bill Dunas (May 16)

9611

"The Women of Trachis"

9612

12 West for the Second Time (May 17)

9614

Ze'Eva Cohen as a Solo at Riverside (May 18)

9616

"Faggot" Experience on Subway

9617

"A Chorus Line" (May 19)

9619

"Chicago" (Play) (May 20)

9621

"The Man in the Glass Booth" (Movie) (ay 21)

9623

Food! (May 22)

9625

"Bluebeard"

9626

Easiest Fantasy in the World (May 23)

9628

Jeff Duncan Evening

9629

Club Baths 20

9630

Staggeringly Wasted Day (May 24)

9636

"Eugene Onegin" with Reyn (May 29)

9638

est Report from Pope (May 30)

9641-9643

Climbing the Mountain with Rolf/Philosophy (Jun 1)

9645

"The Dark Angel" (movie)

9646

Sachiyo Ito Dances (Jun 2)

9650

Toby M (Jun 5)

9653

Hailstorm in NYC

9654

Rolf and Philosophy

9655

Pressure of Ideas (Jun 7)

9659

Lloyd Moore's "Molestation"

9660

Kavkazi Concert

9661

Bette Midler's "Clams on the Half-Shell" Revue

9662

Pope Hill and est (Jun 10)

9664

Paul Taylor 1975

9665

Bill H and Ram Dass (Jun 11)

9667

Stuttgart's "Swan Lake" (Jun 12)

9669

Second Ballet Trockadero de Monte Carlo (Jun 13)

9671

Display Book Final Report

9672

End of Bob G

9673

Chat with Ceil (Jun 14)

9675-9678

"Mahler's First" Fantasy (Jun 15)

9681-9683

Introductory Lecture to est (Jun 17)

9685

Stuttgart Short Pieces (Jun 18)

9687

Second Hand-In-Hand Film Festival

9688

Meeting Charles Tekeyan

9689-9691

"Between Years" 1-3 (Jun 19)

9693

Cynthia's WILD Life

9694-9696

"Between Years" 4-6 (Jun 20)

9698-9700

Aldous Huxley's "Jesting Pilate"

9701

Determinism and Freedom

9702-9706

"Between Years" 7-11 (Jun 21)

9710-9712

est Pre-Training (Jun 24)

9714

Coney Island 1975 (Jun 25)

9716

Bolshoi Opera's "Boris Godunov" (Jun 26)

9718-9719

"Keep the River On Your Right'' by Tobias Schneebaum (Jun 27)

9722

Dream of 6/28

9723-9735

est Training Day 1 (Jun 29)

9737-9745

est Training Day 2 (Jun 30)

9747

Gudde Dancers (Jul 1)

9749

est Chats with Pope

9750

Bolshoi's "The Gambler"

9751-9753

Talk About Love With Art (Jul 2) [on 9753A]

9754

Story Ideas

9755

Charles Tekeyan

9756-9759

est Mid-Training (Jul 3)

9761

Bob Grossman as a Downer

9762

Kei Takei's "After Lunch"

9763-9765

Trying Mathematics at C

9766

Garden of Eden Expulsion

9767

Night before Final est Weekend (Jul 4)

9770-9783

est Training Day 3 (Jul 6)

9785-9801

est Training Day 4 (Jul 7)

9803

Black Day after est (Jul 8)

9805

The Problem of Beauty AGAIN

9806

Draft of est-Letter?

9807

Connectedness Coincidences (Jul 9)

9809

Talk with Pope after est

9810-9813

est Post-Training Seminar (Jul 10)

9815

Bolshoi's "Eugene Onegin"

9816

Bolshoi's "War and Peace"

9817

Werner Erhard Fantasy

9818-9825

est Training Notes

9826

Conclusions, For Now (Jul 11)

9828

Computer Dialogue

9829-9830

Continuing Fantasy with Werner Erhard (Jul 12)

9832

Indian Festival in Central Park (Jul 13)

9835

Orgy at Arnie's for Bob (Jul 15)

9837

Pope's Disgust with est

9838-9842

Pope's Notes on my Notes (Jul 16)

9844

Bolshoi's "Pique Dame"

9845

The Bolshoi Opera Season (Jul 17)

9847

Four New Apartments in One Day (Jul 18)

9849

Flea: Free-Lance Editor's Association

9850-9851

Be Here Now #1 (Jul 19)

9853

American Ballet Theater New Three (Jul 20)

9856

Transcendental Meditation Checking

9857

Volunteering for a Second Introductory Session at est (Jul 22)

9859

Talk with Arnie about Extremes (Jul 23)

9861-9862

Multi-Dimensionality Stabilized

9863

Communication to Werner Erhard

9864

We Create Beauty

9865

"Tibetan Yoga" (Jul 24)

9868

"World's Young Ballet" Film

9869-9870

Be Here Now #2

9871

est Homework from Be Here Now #2 (Jul 26)

9874-9875

Seminar on Personality Profiles

9876-9879

est Training Day 4 (End) Again

9880

Giving a Personality Profile (Jul 28)

9882

Bob R's Problems

9883

Arnie's Better Orgy (Jul 29)

9885-9886

Seminar for Volunteers for Guest Seminars (Jul 30)

9888

Circus in Harlem (Jul 31)

9891

Be Here Now #3 (Aug 2)

9895

est as Serendipitous Forgetfulness (Aug 5)

9897

Politics in Movies

9898

Horrible Few Days (Aug 6)

9900-9902

Letter to Editor of "Psychology Today"

9903

Revised Letter to Editor of "Psychology Today"

9904

United-States-Corruption Thoughts (Aug 7)

9906-9909

First Evening with Werner Erhard

9910

Second Revision to Editor of "Psychology Today" (Aug 8)

9912

Come at FIFTH pre-Drop (Aug 9)

9917

Transparency Again (Aug 13)

9920-9922

First Post-Training Assisting Session (Aug 15)

9924-9926

Be Here Now #4 (Aug 16)

9929

Hardest Brink-Pausing Come Yet (Aug 18)

9932

Wow, Look at Me Over THERE!

9933-9934

Anomie

9935

Arnie's Worst Orgy (Aug 20)

9937-9938

Two Meetings in One Day on Transcendental Meditation

9939

Lunch with Larry Price at Yale Club (Aug 21)

9941

Just Don't Feel Right

9942

Dream-Fantasy of 8/22 (Aug 22)

9944-9945

Be Here Now #5 (Aug 23)

9947

Incapacitated

9948

"Mystic" Number System

9949

Alvin Ailey is Awful

9950

Terrific Orgasm! (Aug 24)

9952

Coming Out of It Slowly (Aug 25)

9954-9955

Assisting at September C Pre-Training (Aug 26)

9958-9962

Assisting at est Office at 156 West 13th

9963

Second TM Intermediate Lecture (Aug 28)

9967

TM versus est (Aug 31)

9969

New York Dance Festival in CP

9970

Classical Ballet Limitations (Sep 1)

9973-9976

Tuesday est Training Assisting

9977

Death/Yoga/Reincarnation

9978

Marriott Essex House Kitchen Data (Sep 3)

9980

Nyree on Last Night's est

9981-9984

Wednesday est Training Assisting

9985

est Special Graduate Event (Sep 4)

9987-9989

Second est Post-Training Seminar Assisting

9990

How Much I Want to Be Involved with est (Sep 5)

9992

Commitment Problems with est

9993-9995

Friday est Training Assisting

9996

More or Fewer Commitments (Sep 6)

9998

"Dancers" Program One (Sep 7)

10000

"Dancers" Program Two

10001

More Commitments (Sep 8)

10003

"The Skin of Our Teeth"

10004

Mom Talks about Grandma's Dying

10005

The Skin of MY Teeth (Sep 9)

10007-10008

Mid-Training est Assisting (Sep 10)

10010

Third TM Noon Lecture

10011-10012

Third Post-Training Seminar Assisting (Sep 11)

10014

Getting Ready for the est-Assisting Weekend (Sep 12)

10016-10018

Be Here Now #6

10019

Paul and Jim- (ep 13)

10021-10025

Saturday Training Assisting (Sep 14)

10027-10036

Sunday Training Assisting (Sep 15)

10039

Conversation with Tom

10040

Art's Birthday Dinner at Oyster Bar (Sep 17)

10042

Boundary-Pushing

10043

Vocabulary Building with est

10044

Dream of 9/15

10045

The Only Dance There Is

10046

TM Lecture on SCI

10047

Fourth Post-Training Assisting (Sep 18)

10049

Post-Training Training Assisting (Last Night) (Sep 19)

10051

"The Nature of the Chemical Bond"

10052

Be Here Now #7

10053

Talk with Marty (Sep 20)

10055

Party with the Maos

10056

Great Sex with Stephen (Sep 21)

10060-10067

Leonard Orr's Money Seminar

10068

Hassle with est Commitment (Sep 24)

10070-10076

Spiritual Psychology Seminar

10077

Going to California? (Sep 25)

10080-10082

Be Here Now Seminar #8 (Sep 27)

10085

Karmic Law/Two Dreams (Sep 29)

---------- 6 consecutive days!

10092

Saturday Night Fun at Hemlock Hall

10094-10095

Sunrise at Hemlock Hall (Oct 5)

10100

TM Intermediate Lecture #5

10101

Coming to the Point of Nausea

10102

Agonize Over Diary

10103

Notes on est Training Review (Oct 9)

10106-10109

Be Here Now #9 (Oct 11)

10111

Spurt of Energy

10112

Draft of Letter to Leonard Orr

10113

Long Talk with Joan (Oct 12)

10115

"The Duchess of Malfi"

10116

Sleeping Depends on Doing? (Oct 13)

10118

Letter about Cats (Oct 14)

10121

New Kind of Novel

10122

TM Intermediate Lecture #6

10123

5.5 Hours in the New est Office

10124-10125

Meet Ida Rolf (Oct 16)

10127

Philosophy Readings in EB

10128

Out of It at My Own Orgy (Oct 17)

10130-10131

Be Here Now #10

10132

Assisting at est

10133

Club Baths 21

10134

Go Brahmacharya? (Oct 18)

10137-10138

Louis Malle Conversation (Oct 20)

10140-10141

Advanced Lecture in TM #1

10142

Where Am I Totally?

10143

Schedule for PUBLISHABLE Writing (on desk) (Oct 21)

10145

"1 Plan to Say" at est

10146-10153

"Between Years" 12-19 (Oct 22)

10155

est Post-Training Assisting Next-To-Last

10156

"Between Years" 20 (Oct 23)

10158

Dream Fragments from Two Days

10159

Cartoons at Donnell

10160

Bob G Summary

10161

Stephen W and Porno (Oct 24)

10163-10174

"Between Years" 21-32

10179-10180

Actualization on Friday (Oct 25)

10182-10184

Actualization on Saturday

10185-10186

Actualization Cast of Characters (Oct 26)

10188-10191

Actualization on Sunday

10192-10194

Actualization Personal Reality Form (Oct 27)

10196-10200

Actualization on Monday

10201

Actualization Summing-Up (Oct 28)

10204

Last est Post-Training Assisting

10205

Why the Beard Went (Oct 30)

10209

The Essence of My Mother

10211

More Notes on Mom (Nov 1)

10214

Talk with Rita

10215-10216

Larry Ball over the Edge (Nov 3)

10218

Final Understanding with Mom (Nov 4)

10222

Grierson Documentaries (Nov 7)

10224

"Treemonisha"

10225

Evening with Art (Nov 8)

10227

Hava Kohav Dance Theatre

10228

Last Night at Wall Street Sauna

10229

More Actualization Thoughts

10230

Time Thoughts

10231

Where Am I Now?

10237

Jewel-in-the-Heart-of-the-Lotus Come

10238

First Trip Tape (Nov 10)

10240

Everything in its Time

10241

est Office for 6.5 Hours

10242

TM Advanced Lecture: Comprehension of Transcendence

10243-10247

Club Baths 22 (Nov 11)

10249-10253

Tape From "Let the Words Come Through" (Nov 12)

10255

Dream of 11/12

10256

"Raymonda" with Gregory and Nureyev (Nov 13)

10259-10262

Sex-Talk with Bob R (Nov 14)

10264

About Sex #1

10265-10266

About Sex #2

10269-10270

Great Orgy at Arnie's

10271

Dreams of 11/15 (Nov 16)

10273

Bees

10274

Linda Tarnay and Dancers

10275

Travel in a Different Way

10276

Rolf Speaks of Non-Being

10277

est: How to be a Sexual Turn-on (Nov 17)

10279

Dream Fragments of 11/18 (Nov 18)

10281

List of Hemlock Hall Trips

10285

"The Nun's Story"

10288

About Sex #3

10289

Sharing with Mary Ellen Gardiner (Nov 22)

10292

Yass Hakoshima's Audience

10293

Heidegger's "Discourse on Thinking"

10294

Dream of 11/24 (Nov 24)

10296-10297

Club Baths 23

10298

Coincidence File (on desk) (Nov 25)

10300-10306

"The Homosexual Matrix" (Nov 26)

10313

"Star Trek" Plotlines (Nov 30)

10315

"In the Midst" (Dec 1)

10317

$2 Stamp Purchase Exploded

10318

Man's Country 2

10319-10320

Two Dreams of 12/2

10321

What'll I Say to est (Dec 2)

10323

Talk with Bob after est Seminar

10324

Distinct Mounts in Inevitability of Coming

10325-10359

Tape to Bill

10360-10361

est's Special Seminar on Success and Failure

10362

Pope's Phonecall for an Hour and a Half

10363

Why Do People Do It? (Dec 3)

10365

Ecstatic Morning!

10366

Guy S

10373

About Sex #4

10374

The [Horrible] Strap (Dec 6)

10377

Paul and Me DO It Again (Dec 8)

10379-10380

Club Baths 24 (Dec 9)

10382

est Liking For Seminar

10383

Bob and I with Second Hot Fudge Sundae (Dec 10)

10385A-10389

Anvil Tape to Bill (Dec 11)

10391-10402

Campbell Notes (Dec 12)

10406

Alvin Ailey (Dec 15)

10408

Donald M (Dec 16)

10411

est money Seminar

10412

Bob R's Early Sex Life (Dec 17)

10414-10415

Strange Times

10416

Dror's Message

10417

"Travesties"

10418

Christmas Dinner at Oyster Bar with Art and Joyce (Dec 18)

10420-10424

Rebirthing Seminar (Dec 19)

10425-10426

About Sex #5

10427

What I'll Say to est NOW (Dec 20)

10429

Party at Rick and Vito's with Paul (Dec 21)

10431

Dream Fragment of 12/22 (Dec 22)

10433

TM Advanced Lecture 3 (Dec 23)

10435

"Pinocchio"

10436

Dream of 12/24 (Dec 24)

10438

Notes on "Nothing"

10439-10451

Rebirthing with Leonard Orr

10452

Dinner at Paul's on Christmas Eve

10453

Smoky Mary's (Dec 25)

10456-10458

Rolfing Session 1

10459-10460

Trip Tape Jottings (Dec 27)

10464

"Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs"

10465

Dream of 12/31 (Dec 30)

10467

Talk with Leonard Orr about his Book

10468

General Annoyance

10469-10472

Physical Immortality Seminar (Dec 31)

10474

Leonard Orr, Personally